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<\/p>\nIf you follow my personal Facebook page, you already know the outcome of my fight. \u00a0I lost. \u00a0Totally lost. \u00a0But there were so many other victories along the way that I’m trying to focus on all the positive outcomes of this week and all the things I learned.<\/p>\n
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The Fight<\/strong><\/p>\n The actual fight was harder than I thought it would be. \u00a0I didn’t know it at the time, but I was matched with someone with a lot more experience than me. \u00a0But that’s how the tournament works. \u00a0You face who you face and that’s all that matters. \u00a0It’s hard to write about it. \u00a0Parts of being in the ring still feel like a dream. \u00a0The schedule was so full that everything was rushed. \u00a0It felt like I didn’t have one second to prepare myself. \u00a0I remember turning to Jameson and saying, “Is it really right now?” and then the bell went off. \u00a0In some ways I remember every moment of the fight. \u00a0In other ways, I don’t at all. \u00a0I’ve watched the video now but I still haven’t matched my memory to what actually happened.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n I made it three rounds. \u00a0It felt awful. \u00a0I had lost. \u00a0I bled. \u00a0I had failed. \u00a0It felt horrible. \u00a0Even now I can feel the exact moment I lost and knowing I’d lost. \u00a0And I’d done it in front of some many people that I know and love. \u00a0I’d failed everyone. \u00a0It feels awful to lose and I’d never felt it quite like that before. \u00a0I cried. That’s pretty much how I felt the whole rest of the night. \u00a0And then I ate some cookies.<\/p>\n The Next Morning\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n The next morning I felt a little relief about it. \u00a0I found out how much experience that girl had had. \u00a0I was trying not to beat myself up about it. Everyone was sending messages of support and love. \u00a0I didn’t look at any of the photos or videos because I just didn’t want to know. \u00a0I didn’t want to see the concrete evidence of her beating me. \u00a0Besides, I had to go to the fights again that night. \u00a0It was time to focus on them winning and not me losing. Everyone was telling me how good I did, even strangers, but on the inside I felt like I just stood there and let her punch me. I was still pretty pity party on the inside but doing the best I could. \u00a0That night one of my fellow fighters won his class. \u00a0it was awesome to be there and see it and be a small part of it. \u00a0Right after his fight, my opponent went on to win as well. \u00a0So I had lost, but I had lost to the champion. \u00a0It would have been ASTONISHING if I had beaten her. \u00a0Also, my coach and I had a discussion about if I’m fighting in the right weight class or not. \u00a0More on that later…..<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Today\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n Today is Sunday, a day I’ve been waiting for. \u00a0I knew the Golden Gloves would be over today, either way. \u00a0I knew today I could spend with my husband and eating FOOD for the first time in a while. \u00a0And today I feel really good about losing. \u00a0I used to say things like “I could never get in the ring” “I could never fight” and yet I did. \u00a0That’s a victory in itself. \u00a0My real goal all along was to box in the ring and that’s what I did. \u00a0Somewhere along the way everything turned to wanting to win because I knew I could. \u00a0After I watched the fight today, I do see that I made mistakes and there are places that I could have made the fight more even, but it was my first fight. \u00a0Everyone’s already asking if I’m going to fight again and I don’t have an answer for that yet but stay tuned!<\/p>\n Today I know that I’m a fighter. \u00a0I’m a registered USA boxer and I’ve completed my first amateur bout in the Colorado Golden Gloves. \u00a0But I’m more than even just that now. \u00a0As soon as 1 year ago, the fear of getting in the ring would have crippled me. \u00a0I don’t mean that if you’re scared to get in the ring, you’re not strong. \u00a0I mean that the fear of actually doing it would have stopped me from even trying in the past. \u00a0The anxiety of the day, the stress leading up to it, the juggling of some many things, in the past it would have stopped me. \u00a0But instead I fought. \u00a0Literally and figuratively. I fought for what I wanted and won even if I didn’t win my first fight.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" If you follow my personal Facebook page, you already know the outcome of my fight. \u00a0I lost. \u00a0Totally lost. \u00a0But there were so many other victories along the way that I’m trying to focus on all the positive outcomes of this week and all the things I learned. The Fight The actual fight was harder … <\/p>\n![\"_MG_0046](\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yogapantsdiary.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/MG_0046-1-e1459119228344.jpg?resize=525%2C350\")
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