{"id":524,"date":"2014-12-10T16:52:27","date_gmt":"2014-12-10T23:52:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/yogapantsdiary.com\/?p=524"},"modified":"2014-12-10T16:52:27","modified_gmt":"2014-12-10T23:52:27","slug":"struggling","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yogapantsdiary.com\/?p=524","title":{"rendered":"Struggling……."},"content":{"rendered":"

Hey All!\u00a0 I know it’s been a while since I last posted.\u00a0 My excuses for this are: Thanksgiving, work stress, laziness and a general feeling of blah.\u00a0 Not good excuses, but excuses none the less.<\/p>\n

How did everyone do over the holidays? I am proud to say, even with all my worrying, I did not gain any weight over Thanksgiving!\u00a0 I was probably more careful than necessary but I was proud to get through the holiday without the ‘overstuffed for three days’ feeling this year!<\/p>\n

But, emotionally I’m really struggling.\u00a0 I am still trying to figure out this transition from LOSING WEIGHT to having LOST THE WEIGHT.\u00a0 I have now been maintaining for three months.\u00a0 I thought it would be a breeze and that emotionally, I was ‘done’ trying to figure things out.\u00a0 But I’m not.<\/p>\n

The high of getting healthy and the constant compliments are starting to wear off.\u00a0 People still tell me pretty often how good I look but it doesn’t have the same effect on me anymore.\u00a0 I don’t feel like I need to hear it to keep going or store it in my compliment bank for when I’m feeling down.\u00a0 Now it just feels like………well yeah, I did lose the weight.<\/p>\n

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I am also struggling with not seeing the scale go down.\u00a0 EVERYONE, including my doctor, have told me I look great, I’m healthy and I shouldn’t lose more weight.\u00a0 I too believe this.\u00a0 I feel like physically I can do everything I’ve always wanted to do and now I’m just picking new goals for my body for fun.\u00a0 I’m happy with my new pants size and love buying new clothes again.\u00a0 BUT I still feel disappointed when I get on the scale.\u00a0 I should want to cheer everyday when I see the same number.\u00a0 But in the back of my mind, I’m secretly hoping to see it go down.\u00a0 But why? Am I just addicted to the numbers? I’m not sure but I still feel it.\u00a0 I’ve been under my goal weight of 165 since the day I hit it.\u00a0 I try to stay around 160 because that’s where I’m mentally comfortable.\u00a0 But, when I see the scale at 162, I feel like I have to do everything I can to get back down.\u00a0 WHY?<\/p>\n

I am a highly anxious person. I obsess and worry about anything and everything to the point where it isn’t healthy sometimes. (Thanks Dad!)\u00a0 My weight and health were always a huge worry in the back of my mind.\u00a0 Now that worry is gone and I find myself searching for other things to worry about instead.\u00a0 Will I ever figure out how to just be happy, confident and enjoy life? Has anyone? I feel like there have always been huge pieces of my life to worry about: health, finances and location.\u00a0 Now I’m healthy, our finances are stable and we love where we live.\u00a0 What do I do now?<\/p>\n

So today I’m writing with no profound wisdom, no suggestions or tips, only to say, I still don’t have it figured out and maybe I never will.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Hey All!\u00a0 I know it’s been a while since I last posted.\u00a0 My excuses for this are: Thanksgiving, work stress, laziness and a general feeling of blah.\u00a0 Not good excuses, but excuses none the less. How did everyone do over the holidays? I am proud to say, even with all my worrying, I did not … <\/p>\n

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