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<\/a><\/p>\nObviously, there are huge differences in my weight.\u00a0 I’m just guessing here but I think,<\/p>\n
2012: 290 pounds.<\/p>\n
2013:\u00a0 215 pounds.<\/p>\n
2014: 160 pounds.<\/p>\n
But there are other differences too.\u00a0 In all the photos from 2012 and before, they never show my body.\u00a0 The photos are always ‘selfie style’ before it was cool.\u00a0 One year I’m not even in the photo and it’s just Dan and the dog.<\/p>\n
I could not wait to take this year’s photo.\u00a0 Ever since we moved to Colorado we’ve been sending a photo inside our card just to check in with non-Facebook family.\u00a0 When I look back at these three photos especially, I have mixed feelings.<\/p>\n
I still believe I’m beautiful in all three of these photos.\u00a0 I remember feeling beautiful, sexy and confident in all of them. They all have wonderful memories attached and I still feel that joy in my heart when I see them.\u00a0 But as I stood and watched the progression after framing this year’s photo, I felt very sad too.\u00a0 I feel like I don’t even recognize that person anymore.\u00a0 Does that mean she’s gone?<\/p>\n
I hope I have kept all the parts of that person that I loved and just changed what I didn’t.\u00a0 There’s so much I hated about that body but loved about the person inside. So in some ways I LOVE our holiday photo this year.\u00a0 I think I look hot, sexy and fit!\u00a0 But I hope you can still see my spirit underneath.\u00a0 Merry Christmas everyone!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
For the last 6 years, the hubby and I always try to take a holiday photo.\u00a0 We have them arranged by year in matching frames on our bookcase.\u00a0 This year I couldn’t wait to get our photo and put it in line next to the others. Here’s the last three years: 2012 2013 2014 Obviously, … <\/p>\n
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