{"id":693,"date":"2015-02-17T16:21:30","date_gmt":"2015-02-17T23:21:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/yogapantsdiary.com\/?p=693"},"modified":"2015-02-17T20:01:41","modified_gmt":"2015-02-18T03:01:41","slug":"photos-dont-lie","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yogapantsdiary.com\/?p=693","title":{"rendered":"Photos Don’t Lie"},"content":{"rendered":"

This week I have been collecting a lot of old and new photos to make a timeline of my weight loss.\u00a0 It has been surprisingly difficult. Photos of my body at my heaviest weight, DO NOT EXIST.\u00a0 I feel like I keep using the same 5 pictures of examples of how heavy I was over and over.\u00a0 So I spent a few hours going through old photos both digital and in print.\u00a0 Now I have maybe 10.\u00a0 All the photos I can find, only show my face.\u00a0 The reason for this is obvious.\u00a0 I didn’t want people to see it!\u00a0 It’s bad enough to have to walk around in a body like that but seeing it in a concrete photo makes it even worse.<\/p>\n

There are definitely times when, even when I was huge, I felt beautiful and sexy. \u00a0Here’s an example! \"1910595_517071417879_8728_n\"<\/a> Then: <\/strong>While this wasn’t my actual Wedding Day, this is a day that I felt beautiful.\u00a0 I felt sexy and confident in my wedding dress. This was a great day and I think the smile on my face shows it all.<\/p>\n

Now: <\/strong>When I look at this photo now, I still think I look beautiful.\u00a0 I do think I look huge in my size 22 wedding dress but all my happiness outshines my size.\u00a0 True love really does conquer all, even making you look past how heavy I am.<\/p>\n

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However, my beautiful and confident days were few and far between.\u00a0 Here’s another example:<\/p>\n

\"1909824_517071148419_8855_n\"<\/a>Then: <\/strong>This is a hot summer day in Las Vegas on my Honeymoon.\u00a0 I had bought new clothes just for the Las Vegas sun.\u00a0 I remember wanting to feel cute in this photo and being totally grossed about about my belly.\u00a0 I think I might have even cried right there on the Las Vegas Strip.\u00a0 Is that what I really looked like? Photos don’t lie and I wanted this photo to lie sooooo bad.<\/p>\n

Now: <\/strong>Gross.\u00a0 Fat.\u00a0 Unhappy. This should have been another photo where my smile and happiness distract you from how I look, but it doesn’t.\u00a0 I was uncomfortable with how I looked that day and you can tell.<\/p>\n

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The beautiful and gross days still continue to this day.\u00a0 There are days I feel confident, sexy and ready to take on the world.\u00a0 This is how I feel most days now.\u00a0 BUT I do still have days that I feel gross and unattractive.\u00a0 Even after losing the weight, some days I feel fat.\u00a0 Even after losing the weight, there are things I don’t like about my body.\u00a0 Even after losing the weight, I’m still not always happy.<\/p>\n

Here’s an example: \"Goal<\/a>Then: <\/strong>I remember feeling gross this day.\u00a0 This was the weekend I hit my goal weight.\u00a0 Even though I should have been over the moon, I just wasn’t.\u00a0 I wasn’t confident about how I looked and I was feeling really weird about the whole thing.<\/p>\n

Now: <\/strong>Get over yourself. To everyone else, this picture is totally normal.<\/p>\n

But there ARE days I feel SUPER hot.\u00a0 \"IMG_4667\"<\/a>Then: <\/strong>I feel cute today.\u00a0 Let’s take some pics!<\/p>\n

Now: <\/strong>Look at all that extra skin.\u00a0 Gross<\/p>\n

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People think losing weight just makes all your other problems go away.\u00a0 Thin=Happy right?<\/p>\n

Sexy=No gross days right?<\/p>\n

Confidence=Never feeling fat right?<\/p>\n

No!\u00a0 To most people these last two photos probably look the same, but how I was feeling in both photos is totally different.\u00a0 YOU HAVE TO CHANGE YOUR VISION.<\/p>\n

The farther I get from my heaviest weight, the fatter I think I was.\u00a0 It’s so easy to lie to yourself and tell yourself it’s not that bad.\u00a0 It’s so easy to think, ‘it’s just a bad photo’.\u00a0 Bad photos exist and I think the lens that you view photos through depends on how you were feeling at that time.\u00a0 But photos can not lie.\u00a0 That is how you looked at that moment no matter what.\u00a0 It’s your emotions that change the way the photo seems. <\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

This week I have been collecting a lot of old and new photos to make a timeline of my weight loss.\u00a0 It has been surprisingly difficult. Photos of my body at my heaviest weight, DO NOT EXIST.\u00a0 I feel like I keep using the same 5 pictures of examples of how heavy I was over … <\/p>\n

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