For the past two-three months, I’ve been struggling with my fitness. I still absolutely love to work out and I’m totally addicted. However, I happy with how my body looks now and I’ve struggled to push myself in classes at the gym. I don’t need to lose any more weight and I’m more than happy with my muscle tone. So……what am I doing? Where do I want to go?
I’ve been looking at my fitness goals I set in January.
1. Run a half Marathon (Coming in May!!)
2. Hike at least one 14er
3. Be able to do 5 pull ups
Well………..Number one is happening in May whether I’m ready or not. It’s been too cold to hike until the past few weeks, and I’m up to 5 pull ups already. So again……what are my real long term goals?
When I was heavy, my ideal image of fitness was a distance runner. 
Women like this run past my apartment all day long every day. I would see them and think, “Wow. That’s what I want to be able to do someday.” I’ve never been envious of body builders, cyclists, gymnasts or swimmers. That’s never been the type of body I wanted to have or activities I’m even interested in. I’ve never wanted to be able to squat 300 pounds. BUT I’ve always wanted to be a runner. My sister did Cross Country when we were in school. I could never believe how far she could run or that she actually liked it. After moving to Colorado, I saw just how normal running was here.
So I’m trying to zero in on what I really want from my body and what I want it to be able to do. So, for the next two months………..and I still can’t believe I’m saying this……I’ve suspended my gym membership. I’m going to be mixing running with boxing training while I prepare for the race. While talking through my goals with my hubby, I said “I’d love to be able to run a 5K every 6 months for the rest of my life” and that’s my real goal: fitness for life.
While my body is adjusting to running, my mind still is not. I have trouble finding the ‘runner’s zone’ and think about how much I hate running all the time still. BUT I’m hopeful that I will learn to love it and crave it like I do my workouts at the gym. So we will see. Can I become my ideal athlete? Can I be one of those people that others see as a goal? Is there someone watching me run in the park thinking, “I hope to do that someday”? I hope so! BTW: I’m probably wearing these underneath.
