So the struggle continues……..
It’s been one week of no sweets or alcohol. I can feel my cravings resetting and I’m proud of walking past the trays of cookie leftovers at work without taking one. I can feel how clean my system is. BUT……I haven’t dropped any of the excess water weight that I thought I was putting on.
On the scale yesterday morning, I had a moment. A bad one. I woke up and got on the scale to see I had gained 3 pounds OVERNIGHT. This is a huge red flag for me for several reasons.
- I NEVER bloat or gain three pounds over night. Never.
- I’ve been on no sweets
- I thought I’d eaten perfectly for three days straight
I stood on the scale and cried out of frustration. Normally, a few pounds here and there is no big deal but now I’m trying to trim down to my fighting weight and seeing the scale jump was devastating. If you have never cried on the scale, I congratulate you. I can’t believe that my emotions are still so tied to the number I see but it’s important right now. Now I HAVE to be a certain weight or I can’t fight. So it’s a very weird feeling.
Anyway, I reached out to a friend that I have to see what she thought. This friend is not just the average person or someone that I have even known that long but she’s awesome. I first met Jessica in my very first class, MY VERY FIRST CLASS, at Touch of Sleep Boxing Gym. I case you don’t remember that post, or you’re new to this blog it was titled Boxing with DaVarryl and it was the first timed I had ever cried in a workout. I felt so stupid because I didn’t know what he was asking me to do. Jessica was sympathetic and tried to help even under the strict “no talking rule” in the ring. My trainer was unable to be there that night, which is how I ended up in class. Later I said to him, “And there was this girl there”. He immediately cut me off and scolded me for focusing on others instead of myself. But I saw her and I’ve been drafting off her inspiration and motivation ever since. She was also the first girl I had ever sparred with and it was terrifying. Again, read here. Then when I ran my first half marathon, she waited to see me finish! (that one’s here)
Wow that picture seems really old now……..
She currently is a personal trainer, studying nutritionist, WBFF pro, Ms. Cherry Creek, (Soon to be Ms Colorado!) a World’s Toughest Mudder and has fought under our gym in previous Golden Gloves fights and soooo many other amazing things. Oh and she just got married and rocked a KILLER red dress. Anyway, I sent her a message freaking out. I knew she would understand the feeling I had and know how to help or at least listen. She asked me what I had been eating and I sent her my list of typical foods. Which, if you’ve been reading, you know I pretty much eat the exact same foods everyday except I switch up dinner and the weekends get messy. So I feel like it should be kind of a no brainer for me by now. If I make these choices, the numbers do this and everything is fine. I have control of my choices, so I can control the numbers……right? Not always.
I’m investigating what is going on but I want to see what works before I give out the secret because it sounds quite ludicrous. So if you’re intrigued……stay tuned!
So THANKS Jess! Sometimes people look at me and see that I’ve lost the weight and assume I’ve figured it all out right? I have lots of somebody’s for different things but here’s a shout out to Jess for being my somebody the other day!